Man, this year has really sucked for you

I trust that the good folk in white coats have strongly suggested that you quit smoking. I quit 6 weeks ago (cold turkey), and it's still tough some days. I'm fortunate enough to not share your particular motivation though (as far as I know), and hope that I never do. I've discovered that MinuteMaid frozen ices are a great surrogate - they give me something to do that involves both my mouth and a hand, and they take about the same time to eat as a smoke could take. The only problem now is that I'm wondering whether they are themselves addictive.

Good luck with the treatment, and I hope that life starts dealing you some good cards.