I can't state for the record this is part of it, but...you may also have an undiagnosed ADHD or similar condition that has helped to lead you to this particular set of crossroads.

Hm... Googled for ADHD because I didn't know what it was... Read a list of 18 symptoms, and could say `yea' to 8 of 'em... I was almost at the point where I'd go to a shrink anyway, bit it's nice to know what it (possibly) is.

Thanks man.