It's pretty messed up. I mean, screwing around and talking about killing people who piss you off or something is entertaining at times, devising various torture techniques - "hanging by the nutsack" and such. But actually doing it is so different - it's completely against (my) human nature to actually go out and purposely kill other humans.

I wonder if it is ex-military, somehow previously trained for combat, who's gotten over the "don't kill people" thing?